Dorsi: A Story of Redemption - Chapter 6

This is by far one of the most paralyzingly hardest things for me to not only write about, but to share with the world. Up until this time only a select few people have known about this very dark and painful area of my life.

Just the thought of what happened, and my response to it, makes me sick with shame. Even though it was many years ago and I know God has forgiven me, the emptiness I feel because of what I did remains with me.

At age 15 I had become quite prolific at hiding things from my parents. I had become quite secretive and on the outside appeared to be a very intelligent and thoughtful person. The things I did and the actions I did behind closed doors portrayed quite a different person however.

Whether what had happened to my dad had pushed me into this space, or it was just pain stupid teenage reactions to life I'll never understand to this day. All I know is that I became one wild child.

Between the drug use, the sex, the lies, cutting school and keeping secrets, I had become a parents worst nightmare - only my parents didn't even realize it yet.

By far however the biggest secret I kept to myself at age 15 was the fact that I had become pregnant.

Not only was I pregnant ( with Dennis's baby) but I kept the fact hidden for 5 and half months. People ask me how to do I do that, how could my parents not know for 5 months that their daughter was pregnant?

All I can say is that I had become very very good at hiding things, including my pregnancy.

All that changed one night, however as not only was my pregnancy discovered but my drug use was also discovered, all in one fell swoop.

My dirty little secrets were exposed.